hello from the other side

ye well chaol eastfall is back(kinda decided i didnt want to change my alias to the darkling after all bc it sounded too much like the duckling)
hmm its been 4 mths since i was last here oops i guess i kind of just lost interest in life lmao

anyyways national day celeb tmr? its been like a year since we marched with maams and im still missing it alotalot u dunt get it. im rlly sad we dunt get to march this year but im rlllyrlly excited to see nik n charlene hold flags???(idk what the name is AHHHHH)

the past 3 weeks hv been rlyrly crazy istg. i mean, we had so many np events and also CTs. it was like super hectic n evryone felt like kms but u know what we survived! its like taking a wild ride in a hurricane but enjoying every wild second of it. the challanges of yesterday is like our strength today, if you catch my drift. i miss it kinda and might even wanna experience it again, idk.

anyways drill com last sat! i rlly hope we make it to the finals cos id like more trainings if it meant being in the finals(how do i put this)

also stc! its been more than a week but im still missing it alot and i rlly want to go back, tho im probs never seeing the campsite again :"( but ive no regrets, and it was an enjoyable as it was enriching. and it was def worth not studying for the few upcoming tests ;))))

idk if i shd be this chill HAHAHA it seems so wrong


next part is a book rant so ya feel free to skip!
[anyway Tower of Dawn, a book by sarah j maas, is out next month. okay first of all im gna make it clear that im anti-sjm so um ya ive nothing good to say about her. i used to stan her writing so much, until she wrote her 4th book in throne of glass series and screwed up my fav character(chaol westfall, do u now see the link w my alias) for a ship i despise sm. i mean, she didnt have to fillet his character to make a ship work. tahts just downright shitty and ugly. this isnt the only thing i dislike about her, infact i shant continue as my criticism of sjm and her books is a 9 page rant on a word doc(do u see how deep the hate runs). im practically your local salt mine. to get to my point, this book is about chaol, and im rlly not excited for it, cos im not impressed with her writing of chaol so far. n what i dont get is why she is writing a book about a character she hates. to me she is jus milking her lousy writing an trying to woo back ppl like me who were once fans. lol nah.
i also dislike her stans lel
while other chaol fans and her stans are getting rlly excited for this book im like NONONO PLS DUN COME OUT. i actually want her to kill chaol off so that she cant ruin his character anymore :(

btw beekim likes sarah j maas so that puts us at opposite ends but we r chill lol}

HAHA FORGET IT MAN


btw yall shd listen to ruelle's songs teehee. im kinda obsessed with the other side by ruelle rn. imo shes one of the most underrated artists. her songs r so good and makes me so emo(esp bc her songs r used in shadowhunters and argh the feels)
jus a heads up the other side is actually a sad song so um dont expect an upbeat tempo

yey bye im going to eat choc


chaol eastfall

drills comp hehehehe

greetings

sO today was drills comp! and i must say that cedar np did quite well, no regrets. yes, there were a few mistakes here and there but we gave it our allllllllllllll. i really hope we get into finals, PLEASE PLEASE ahh

as what the great hot bok said "5 weeks in 5 minutes". when we first started to train for drills comp, it still felt rather far away... but heh yesterday it just struck me that drills comp was in less than 24 hours. panic, anxiety, fear, hope? YEAH NOT A GOOD COMBINATION, MY HEART JUST CAN'T TAKE SO MANY EMOTIONS. i feel that having A HUGE BUNDLE OF EMOTIONS is so energy draining?? after drills comp, i felt so tired even though the drills sequence was max 5 minutes? WAS DEAD and i wasnt the only one that dieded so ho! science kids, pls explain!

i am happy to be part of cedar npcc :-)

i also hope we get into finals :-)

pray4cedarnp

pray4nikibcshesbroke

givenikisomeca$h

<3 - noki